Sugar free banana bread

1 Oz raisins
1/2 cup warm water
5 ripe bananas
2 cups whole wheat flour
1 tsp baking soda
1/4 tsp salt
1/2 cup butter
2 large eggs
1/2 tsp vanilla
350 degree oven 60-90 minutes

I used 2 Oz raisins and only 3 bananas and mine was perfect! Soak raisins in warm water, then pulse in blender or food processor. Mix everything and put in greased loaf pan and bake!

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Week #4 & misc

We’ll, I’m at the same weight. Fine with me, as I took a few days off from working out and maybe didn’t eat within my calorie goals. It’s going to be up and down, and I’m ok with that – as long as I keep at it and don’t throw in the towel.

I’m getting bored with the treadmill, so a good friend introduced me to POP Pilates videos on YouTube. Oh my goodness!! Owie ouch, that girl is killer!! Some great workouts that I don’t really have the strength or stamina for (yet), but I can do them at my own pace as I get stronger.

I’m eating pretty healthy, but I don’t think I have the carb thing figured out – because I’m hungry in the evenings. Late night snacking is hard to give up. I’ve done pretty good, but it’s really hard.

I’m more than hallway done with reading The Book Thief. It took me a while to get into it, but I’m enjoying it – and am worried about a sad ending! This is silly, but the main character is named Liesel, and I can’t stop thinking of the young sweet faced Liesel in The Sound of Music.

I’m still loving the book Loving Our Kids On Purpose by Danny Silk. I don’t necessarily agree 100% with any parenting book, but I am able to usually find a few diamonds in the rough, pebbles of wisdom, ah ha moments – where I think, “wow!, why didn’t I think of doing that or responding like that ?” I tend to react more than, stop and think – not the most effective way to parent children (in my opinion). It’s a little difficult at times for me, because my husband and I parent differently than my ex-husband and his wife. So when it comes to my oldest, it can get tricky! It’s difficult to feel like you have zero control in the outcome of a parenting situation.

“We need to learn how to be OK no matter what they do. When we are successful in doing that, it’s not such a hurdle for them to get over their experience with us and move into the truth”

“Jesus promoted relationships above the rules. Love and relationship are the bottom line of the Kingdom, and they must be ours if we wish to establish a Kingdom culture in our homes”

I don’t know that we are trying to establish a kingdom culture in our home, but I do want to believe and have our children feel, that our relationships are more important and meaningful, than punishment is for a wrong doing.

Here are some pictures from the past several days.

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Clearing the fog

My brain can’t think straight right now. So I’m going to list it out.
1) some people just stink. Period. They won’t change. I know that. Move on.
2) getting back into shape is HARD. Do it anyways.
3) potato chips are the enemy.
4) do what you can today.
5) every. single. day.
6) be patient
7) it’s OK to let it go
8) be there in the end, because eventually he’ll grow up and look back
9) less everything, more Him
10) the idea is nice, but it’s not your reality

I’m struggling with a few things. I’m thankful, however, that at night (because of working out), I’m actually sleeping. I’m tired, my determination is wavering daily, I’m exasperated, co parenting with my ex husband is draining, thank goodness I don’t mind being the “bad guy”. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.

What helps? Pulling back. Retreating a little. Needing some space. Needing fresh air.

Week #3

The good:

1) I’m eating breakfast! On a regular basis! Amazing. I have NEVER been a breakfast person. I like breakfast food, I just don’t like eating it in the morning. I enjoy coffee for breakfast. Ha ha. Not exactly a good way to get the metabolism going!

2) I have a TON of energy during the day. This is also amazing. I (obviously by my blog name) am a Mom to 4 children (16,11,9,&8) and I run a home daycare – with anywhere from 4-8 additional children, Monday through Friday for a good 10-11 hours a day. So, yes, I’m generally BEAT and pretty exhausted. No more!!!

3) I SLEEP at night. Oh my goodness. This is probably the BIGGEST most FANTASTIC thing that has changed for me. I used to toss and turn all.night.long. it was terrible. Now, I go to bed and read for a little bit (like always) and literally crash. I sleep probably at least 5 hours straight without waking. Which is a huge change for me.

4) My husband is inspired and joining me! Yahoooy!!! I love him to pieces and pieces and pieces. He is, by far, my biggest supporter (outside of our children who are also rooting for me and check in with me daily about my working out and eating process! – even Thomas will text me words of encouragement!!) He is working out more, and is willing to eat whatever I put on his plate. No complaints. Except for one little tiny one – he really, really misses soda pop!

5) I’ve lost 10 pounds since Christmas! Woohoo!!!!

The bad:

1) I have to go to the bathroom, like every  15 minutes. Seriously. Who knew this much water would do this to my system? My sister in law (Joy) is a HUGE water drinker, and her skin and body show it. She’s a beautiful woman – and I’m inspired by her to drink more water. However, she warned me that even as my body gets used to being flooded with my water in-take, my body will not “get used” per se, to it . Which means, I’ll still have to go potty – a lot. Can I just add -that after having 4 children naturally – my bladder cannot seriously hold it for very long! So, I’m super thankful I work from home – and am by a bathroom all day! Ha.

In the last 23 days, I’ve worked out 18 of them! At least 30 minutes of something. The treadmill, Just Dance on the Wii or walking outside on the weekends. I cannot wait for it to be lighter outside earlier! I’m looking for some new kind of dvd to exercise to – I’m getting a bit bored. I also really, really want a heart monitor watch. I want to dance like crazy, or go out running/walking and KNOW for SURE how many minutes and calories I’m working off! So, I think I’ll get one of those in February.

This weekend will be so much fun, and I’m so looking forward to it! Tonight Thomas comes home for the 3 day weekend. Yahooo! Saturday we have 3 basketball games, basketball pictures and a family game night at my in-laws. Sunday we’re celebrating Thomas turning 16!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then that afternoon the SEAHAWKS are on. Yahoo!! Anna also has to wrap up her big science project and I plan on finishing Sweet Sue’s Adventures with Abigail. Nick has also requested that we play a few board games at home – in addition to family game night at Grandma and Papa’s. That boy would play board games every single day all day long if he could! Love that.

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Week 2

Feeling great!

In the last 16 days I’ve worked out 13 of them. Pretty good start. I don’t always want to work out, but once I start, I’m so happy! On the weekends I walk for 2 miles and during the week, I walk on the treadmill for 40-45 minutes at a time.

I’ve tried getting up at 5am and that works sometimes, ha ha, but working out while the kids are napping after lunch is working better for me right now.

I’m eating in my target calorie range. Using the app on my phone has been so helpful. I’ve lost a couple more pounds. I’m also drinking a lot of water and only black coffee. I don’t drink pop or juice.

The hardest part for me is eating breakfast. I’m not a fan of eating in the morning. I try and have fried eggs or hard boiled eggs.

Here are some pictures from the last week.

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1st week

Feeling good! I already have a lot more energy. Mindset? Exercise? Better food choices? Probably a mix of all of those. I’m feeling motivated and excited to keep with this.

I know a lot of people hate the scale and prefer to mark successes by measurements. Not me. The scale is what motivates me. I’m down 3 pounds in the last 12 days. I think I’ve exercised 10 of those days and didn’t stick to good food choices 1 of those days. I’ve stopped using creamer in my coffee, just drinking it black. I’ve cut out most bread and have added more kale and water to my diet.

Here are pictures from the last week or so.

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A new year

I know it’s cliché to say my goal for the new year is to lose weight. In all honesty, I hope that’s the case, but my actual goal is to be pain free. Healthy. Have more energy. Be a good example for my girls. Prove to myself (and all the naysayers) that I can do it.

The plan is to have at least 30 minutes of exercise a day and eat healthier. Cut out the white stuff. Eat more lean meats and more veggies. No fast food for 2014 and be more cautious of what I’m feeding my body. Stop eating earlier. No snacking after dinner (that’s the hard one for me!!)

30 minutes is a good place to start. For me. I have arthritis in my hip and ankle after a bad injury a few years ago. I broke my ankle in 4 places and broke my leg. I wore a boot cast for 6 months. I have 6 screws in my ankle. So, I have to be a little careful to not over so it at the start.

So far so good. I’ve been walking on our treadmill, walking a 2 mile loop in our town and have been dancing to Just Dance 4. You probably won’t ever find me in a gym. Ha. I hate gyms. I’d much rather be outside!!

Here are some pictures from the last week or so. Oh, New Year’s Eve I spent home. Alone. With Chinese food and the food channel. I have learned that at times it’s imperative for me to have some quiet time. My honey took our 4 kiddos to the family game & snack night without me. They had a blast, and I had some much needed peace and quiet.

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